Ducky text me asking whats up with the incu bus. I automatically thought that there was a bus.. hahah I was like what the fff... (just like on David blaine street magic) let's do it. and shes like yea which one are we going to?
I was like what do you mean? I thought we were just going on this bus and following them around. Then she said no silly. Then I suggested we get a bus and follow them around, but it probably won't happen. I mean, I'm down..
I got an email today about the pre sale code.. I just can't decide which to go to.. I really want to go to the SB one bc I haven't been there in some time.. and would really love some....
I hate being sick. I never get sick.. but I think it really is time to see the doctor.
I've been on so many different things the last week. I know for a fact that I slept for 2 days. I think I got up to pee text and fb maybe 4 times in 48 hours.
2 days ago... my snot looked like fuckin egg yolks.. hahah isn't that disgusting.. I was going to take pictures but, I felt that was too graphic..
now.. every time i blow my nose.. it looks like my brains.. hahah.. I think I should be a case on grey's I want to know why my nose is "bleeding" but not really. because it's not like a bloody nose.. its like i blow my nose and its like brains.
I didn't know eating other people's brains to gain their knowledge can lead to this.
but, on a wonderful side note... my friend got me a pretty sick deck from girl. I don't know if I want to ride it or hang it up.
what do u think? I think if I do.. it'll be strictly cruisin board so i'll make it as if it wear a long board..
So I've been a sickie lately. I think all my adventures are really catching up with me and trying to tell me to slowwww down, but I cannot. When I sleep, I dream up theses elaborate dreams of things I want to do and accomplish.
I've been feeling pretty artsy lately and I've been wanting to paint a lot. The hardest part of this all is I just don't know what I want to paint.. in my dreams I've been seeing a lot of death in bright colors, so I was thinking something along those lines.. it's like the almost springtime morbid edition.
With that I want to follow up with making print designs that lead to apparel designs.
I have so many thoughts, but my brain is so overwhelming that I end up doing nothing because I feel that there is just too much and I do not know where to start.
I have three ultimate goals: a bar, a sandwich place.. noo a food place.. where I create all the dishes... mainly all the marvelous creations that I've came up with while in a different state of mind, and of course.. the clothing store that has a dj playing at all times.
I was doing some research on music and people when I was in Vegas. I noticed that everyplace I went to played music and people would get into it while shopping. The music never had any real transition. It played til the end of the song.. a pause.. then next song.. it was at the point when there was that silence that people found their way out of the store.. it was like their exit. If you have great music playing.. especially spinning live.. that person can read the people and read how their feeling.. making the consumer want to stay.
I mean.. this is just what I observed. But then again, my favorite past time is people watching.
In conclusion, I decided I am not lazy, I am not not motivated, I just do not know where to start and I need someone or something to assist me into starting.
Ps. here's a picture from the Playboy club at the palms. I was proud of myself for taking this because I'm so scared of heights ahhahah
So I don't really get jealous of people at all.. but some of my friends are going to the Lakeshow tonight, 2nd row floor seats. And I can actually say I am so fuckin jealous.. hahah
I felt like I needed to share that.. along with this...
Today, I was fooling around with my girlfriend for the first time. She put her hand on my penis over my jeans and said "Get hard for me." I was hard. FML
how many times in your life can you say you just say I love my life?
I am on such a total trip right now. I honestly feel like i live in a fake life or something. I feel like I'm not sure exactly what my purpose is in life is. I feel like there is a list of shit I want to do and once I accomplish that list I just want to donate myself. Like I want to say here you go to a person that really wants to live to do something, but like a person with a purpose.
I've always been somewhat of a believer that everyone is meant to be alone. I feel that people enter this world alone and are supposed to exit alone. I've always felt that life is selfish. You do what you want then you leave. I want to make sure that every person can do what they want.
I went out today on accident really. I hit up my friend on FB chat because I wanted to score some pills. He said yo you coming tonight? i replied with of course.. i checked out his page.. turns out its his birthday. Since one of my biggest goals is to stop flaking, I made it out tonight. I haven't seen these people in years. And I'm glad I went out because it made me realize.. I'm okay in life.
Everyone was living at home with no purpose.. half of them weren't done with school. At least I can say I'm done. I felt extremely accomplished and I actually had other things going on. I sounded like a crazy, but I didn't care it was nice knowing i had "plans" even though for me it didn't seem like it.
I think the hardest part about writing a blog is I just never know how to begin.
I guess I can start off by this song has been stuck in my head since probably saturday afternoon. It plays over and over and over in the back of my mind and I find it sometimes when people are talking to me I space out and just listen to what I'm hearing.
I woke up on the floor this morning to a dead phone. At first I was like fuck. how am i going to get anything done today? My keys and car was about a mile from where I was and I clearly was not in the mood to walk.
The house had a landline. WEIRD who uses a house phone anymore right. I called madre to see what she was up to since Bird left me to go to work. Mother was somewhere on ventura and told me to meet her at the starbucks. Funny thing. I knew exactly which one she was talking about.
We talked about all the upcoming concerts were going to and my trip. She told me to check the mail when i got home. To my surprise there was a wonderrrrful card for me!The wifey sent me a card just becasue. I think those are the best becasue you never know when theyre coming they just appear and make you happy.
I then checked my facebook to see that the idiots at facebook decided to change it. I hate it!! I feel that there is no heirachy, no contrast, nothing that seperates a status versus a wall post.
Does it look like just a bunch of people's status?
Luckily right before I left my computer I saw Jimmy IMed me and asked me to help him DJ a party on saturday. So I decided to buy some speakers and practice some scratching. I don't have many vinyls so I mainly just practiced finding and dropping on the 1s.
Simultaneously, I was attempting to make soup. I had a craving for a bunch of vegetables and noodles. It was a nice first attempt. I know now how to fix it.
Since I sort of started thinking too hard on counting beats. I decided to clean my room since some people think you're room shouldn't be a mess all the time. Though, I see no problem with it. I found some herb while cleaning and decided it was a nice day to just relax and enjoy the outdoors.
As I was sitting out there, it made them start thinking about how to start this blog.
ps. just check out these amazing nachos. someone lied to me and said hot's was closing so i had to go and get these before they did.. but turns out they're not and i was just a fat
I find my stuff. With perfect timing, because Katy got there within like 1 minute me of going outside.
I become a talking machine when intoxicated. I think I probably talked the whole car ride to her place. I was just so excited to be there. As we pull up to her drive way, she says hi to her friend Brandon and I asked where he was going and he said to buy beer and I told him to get me some he asked what I wanted and I was like whatever you get. I totally forgot that they only drink PBR. So nasty.
We had to drink up because we were going to see STS9. hahha. I had no clue who or what that was. I just knew I was going to see it/them/whatever.
Right when I got inside, Dylan was making a grilled cheese and asked me if I wanted one, I said no, but then being in my drunk state I ended up making him and myself one.
We were talking the bus down to the Roseland. So exciting, because we NEVER take the bus in LA. like who does that really.
I just remember we had to run outside and catch it up at the corner and we made it with perfect timing!
I took lots of pictures on the bus. I felt like such a tourist, but I didn't care. It was more for blogging purposes.
The place is pretty cool, but the will call line was the longest thing in the world. There were 2 bars one down stairs and one all the way upstairs.. there was kinda like a middle limbo area were the stage was. Drinks in portland are so cheap! I think I got 2 double jack and cokes and 2 beers for like $15.
the STS9 show was like a huge dance party. and well we know I do not dance. So Brandon and I went up up stairs to get more drinks since we wanted to see the stage still. It was a ridic line to get upstairs. I felt like I was just constantly in a line. I know I say I don't dance, but theres always a certain level of drunkness that I need to achieve and then I just start to because I don't feel like it's dancing as much as it's feeling and moving. hahah. I know that makes no sense. Brandon and I pretty much lost everyone. We finally found Katy and Kyle like the last 10 minutes of the show.
Ultimately, great first day. ... i will need to continue the rest of the weekend later because I need to go to the nasty valley to go to court. FUCK FINES!
I must add this ps to the story. I smoked a lot of cigarettes that night. On one of our smoking breaks, Brandon and I watch this dude get cold clocked outside it was so funny. He was bleeding and he was like whatever it's not worth it and his friend kept saying what the fuck man lets go get him. But those stoners didn't do anything.
I must apoloize for the delay, but I have been so distracted lately. I cannot focus one a single thing.
Where to begin.. ah. So it's Friday morning and I get up super excited and tired. I am a really bad packer. I either do not pack anything at all or I ridiculously over pack because I cannot decide what I will need or I will justify I need it for something. The just in case... I know you know what I mean, and it is so easy to do that when you are driving, not flying. Especially with all the new rules.
I have not been on a plane in probably two years or so. And especially never by myself. I always thought that was the coolest thing and I have always think it's like the movies when you just meet someone and you start talking.
It's about 1:30 and my mom told me I should probably get going because there might be traffic going down to Long Beach. I rarely go south on the 405 anymore so I don't know what traffic is like and my sister is useless and never really knows anything either. She was the one that was dropping me off, but since she's a little bit of an idiot at times, my mom decided to just take me.
So traffic was a bit flowy and got down to Long Beach in about 25 minutes. My flight wasn't until 4:55! I was there so early, so since I have an In N Out radar implanted in me, I knew that there would be one within a mile from the freeway to the right.
Katy asked me to bring up some In N Out. At first, I thought hahah okay, right. But since I got there so early I wanted to kill some time. I got the burger and put it in baggies. I never flew out of Long Beach before. I got there and thought this airport is a joke. I was waiting for like 3 hours and everyone there looked so annoyed and didn't want to be bothered. I took the opportunity to beat map some songs.
I think the coolest thing about jet blue is how you have your own tv. I was set on just watching the Cavs Celtics game because that would be the right amount of time for the flight. I was sort of hoping no one would sit next to me, but of course movie status, someone did.
I could see from the corner of my eye that he was eyeing what I was watching. and you know when you look over because you don't think the other person looking? Well I was wrong he saw me look at him and he took that as an opportunity to introduce himself. For the first 30 minutes he talked about himself and the person I am I had to just listen. I did though, kept looking over for the score. We started to talk about Portland and then the Lakers, then the price of beer at the Staples center versus the Rose Garden. He ordered himself a jack and coke and then asked me why I wasn't getting a drink. I said I didn't think about it. He asked me what I did and I went with the short answer of a gd. He was like what? I need a new business card and this and that and started drawing all over the barf bag what he wanted and how he would pay me to redo his cards.
He gets up to get another jack and coke because it was taking them so long to come to him. He comes back and says hey since it's your first time flying I got you a beer, I hope you don't mind. Don't mind?? riiight like I would give up on free alcohol and we still had an hour left. So we both started watching the game and he kept ordered drinks, I said he didn't have to and he said don't worry it's on my company card, I don't have to worry about the bill. I'm pretty sure everyone on that plane hated us.
They wanted us to close our tab and the guy was like we still have 15 minutes we each want 2 more. I probably had 5 beers on the plane. I got off and was pretty drunk and since I never traveled on my own, I didn't know where to find my bag.
I'm leaving on a JETblue plane tomorrow I'm soo excited and HUGE sign haha that it will be an amazing time. I found $70 in a coat pocket today. I get so excited when I find quarters.. but $70 thats so much!
Finding it, justified buying No Doubt tickets with Mother May I, bernstein bears.
I am so excited for my lifeeeeee weeee!
but i do leave you with this before I start my day. lol.. hahahha
I decided that I like brown, red, white together.. in solids. harsh grey with almost an ash black. in stripes not horizontal or vertical but like at an obtuse angle at 163 degrees descending from the left. with a pistashio green.
Today is so rainy and gloomy. It made me remember Spring '06. We were dirty. Dirty girls '06 lol.
I met Biansex Fall '05 and she became my mother crab.
Crab: n. a certain group of cancers (june 22- july 23). We crabs are hard on the outside, soft on the inside, basically we are really bad at talking about how we feel about anything.
Anyway, I was living with a piece of shit for half a year now, and I contemplated breaking up with him, but never did. So instead of breaking up with him, I just avoided the relationship because I can't quit things. I mean it takes me a really long time to do things, but I usually can't quit.
On night, crab said come with me to my friends dorm I need to give him something. I had nothing to do, so I said sure. We walked all the way to the infamous building 7. (This is where the love of my life Mike lived freshman year..basically where I lived haha) This was when I first met Bo, Jimmy, Taku, Tony, Jeff, David and of course... EOP .
They were all blazing playing Mario Kart. I fell in love after the first night. We were only supposed to drop something off, but we stayed the rest of the night. The asshole called and asked where I was and it was one of the first times that I just didn't care to tell him.
I started to start living on the couch at the house, because I just basically wanted to avoid where I lived completely. I with with Bianca 24/7 no joke. We wouldn't go to class ever becasue we stayed in bed filling out online surveys and making sandwiches with love (pb&j). I remembered it was always cold and raining.
One day, we literally stayed in bed ALL day. We didn't want to not see anyone so we invited people over to come visit us and we made people answer the door and let our friends in. We had a visitor every hour. I remember we fit 7 people on a twin.
Jackie lived at the house at the time too, she was our ocean. She would always want to make breakfast sandwiches.
Heather joined the house also, but I knew her because her brother used to go out with my best friend.
Ocean, Heather, and crabs = dirty girls '06. Every Wednesday night we would play basketball for intramurals and right after we would go over to Bo's place and play beer pong. We used to play just Wednesdays, but then it turned into an every night thing.
Beer pong, weed, Mario Kart, Ali G and breakfast. It's all we did. We all sort of forgot we had school. And for some reason all the guys worked at Abercrombie.
I remember I would go to class to turn something in, and it was usually half done while I was trying to do it on the tram to school. Oh yes, this is when they made a tram that went from the dorms to school. It was way faster to walk to school than take it, but we always took it even if it would make us late because we were so lazy.
We mainly just went on campus to eat and hang out at the Quad, but it was mainly just to figure out what we were doing later that night, which always turned into beer pong somewhere.
One night, Jimmy and I discovered the art of getting high and watching Music videos. AMAZING! We got a reel of Mark Romaneks stuff. It's genius.
YouTube wont let me embed shit, so he's done stuff like 99 problems, criminal, closer, bedtime story, devil's haircut.
It makes me sad thinking about how time changes people and how life just goes.
That semester was like cotton candy, sickly addicting, with no substance, but ridiculously enjoyable.
ps. I'd like to say that I never failed anything before.. hahah so I retook those the classes I got a C-, and the Fs in. I didn't like how it looked after that semester was over and done with.
But I feel I need to share that I am FINALLY going to use my Nike+ shit. I have the shoes. I got the iPod thing. I always buy useless shit, but I think it is time to put it to use.
On the Nike+ website, you can add onto others' challenges, -for example, 100k+ in 30 days. I have always want to be a runner, so I will probably tell you about how it is going for the next 30.
