wow.

how many times in your life can you say you just say I love my life?

I am on such a total trip right now. I honestly feel like i live in a fake life or something. I feel like I'm not sure exactly what my purpose is in life is. I feel like there is a list of shit I want to do and once I accomplish that list I just want to donate myself. Like I want to say here you go to a person that really wants to live to do something, but like a person with a purpose.

I've always been somewhat of a believer that everyone is meant to be alone. I feel that people enter this world alone and are supposed to exit alone. I've always felt that life is selfish. You do what you want then you leave. I want to make sure that every person can do what they want.

I went out today on accident really. I hit up my friend on FB chat because I wanted to score some pills. He said yo you coming tonight? i replied with of course.. i checked out his page.. turns out its his birthday. Since one of my biggest goals is to stop flaking, I made it out tonight. I haven't seen these people in years. And I'm glad I went out because it made me realize.. I'm okay in life.

Everyone was living at home with no purpose.. half of them weren't done with school. At least I can say I'm done. I felt extremely accomplished and I actually had other things going on. I sounded like a crazy, but I didn't care it was nice knowing i had "plans" even though for me it didn't seem like it.